Every song my emotions

I listen to the same songs day to day and I love them all. The words of the songs speak of love, pain, joy, happiness, longing, and heartache. But I just enjoy the melodies the most since I don't reflect on love nor do I currently have it in my life. I am able to analyze the music as a trained musician and dissect the various parts all the while ignoring the underlying meaning to the words and the emotions they are meant to evoke. I simply enjoy the sound.

Yet, when she contacted me recently...after almost a year with no closure on what was the first time in 4 yrs I felt I was falling in love again......every song...every word.....every melody is now become my thoughts....my feelings...my longing...and my heartache. I want the music to stop now. I no longer enjoy listening to it.