What to do

I've got a lot going on lately. I'm stressed about Grad school. I have 6 more classes to take before I graduate. I've been a bit disinterested in Grad school for the last year or so and have taken only one class a semester since my 2nd semester in the program. I used to have a life, so taking one class a semester allowed me to maintain that and still be in school. Well, my dating and social lives are now a thing of the past and I'm wanting to hurry up and get finished with the MBA. However, there's one problem.

I'm afraid of the Finance class I need to take. Everyone that takes it has the choice of taking it with a guy named Pracado online, or with the Indian Dr. Sundar in person. Apparently Sundar's english isn't too great, so being that it is a difficult course to begin with, his broken English makes it even worse. The other option, the online class, is even worse. Everyone with a 4.0 GPA that takes it gets a C in the class. It's that hard. In fact, it's so hard that most people who take it with Pracado, have to take it again because they make D's or F's. Yeah...Finance is NOT my best subject and I don't have a good background in it. So I'm worried. No matter when I take it, I need to take it alone and not with any other classes.

So here's what I'm thinking. I'll take Finance in the summer if I can get Sundar in person. If not, I'll take two electives to get them out of the way. If I can take Fin in the summer and IF I pass it and my GPA stays at 3.0 or higher, I'll only need to take 2 classes a semester for another year and I'll be done. Otherwise, we're looking at another two years to finish at my current one class a semester speed. F*&#@.

Also, I've been invited to go hiking for 5 days in the Grand Canyon in May. I have no experience with hiking or backpacking and the person that wants me to go is a woman I've been interested in for some time. She's not interested in dating, so going away on a trip like this doesn't sound like a great idea. Even though part of me does want to do it. She's an experienced hiker and has invited 4 other people to join. I'm not sure what to expect and she's not the greatest at really explaining things without taking the long way around and missing all the important details. I'm thinking of saying no just because my instincts are telling me not to go there.

I have a wedding in June I have to go to as well. It's in Louisiana and is for one of my good female friends. She and I have a music duo project of her singing and me playing the guitar. She's a close friend, but I really don't agree with her getting married. She has NO idea what's in store for her. She's a single mom and has been married twice before to the same man. Yeah...twice before to the same man...LONG story. Anyways, the man's she's engaged to is a seminary student at Baylor!! My friend is a well-known wildchild and simply cannot be caged. Oh yeah, less than a year ago, she was an atheist too. No shit. I'd like to believe people can change, but in her case, I think she's pretending to be someone she's not just so she can finally have a man that isn't white trash or abusive. Preacher boy seems like a nice guy and apparently had a wild past before finding Jesus or whatever. I don't believe she's ready for this. Preacher's wives...esp Baylor preachers' wives are EXPECTED to be good little Baptist Christian women. Almost like Stepford Wives. Who the F wants to live their life like that?

My friend..the singer, like myself, is NOT someone who can be contained. Give her an inch of freedom and she'll take an entire light year. I've seen this in person and I know for a fact she's kidding herself if she thinks this is going to last. I don't know HOW in the world to approach her about this....so I'm venting it here. I'm worried for her, scared, and a little disappointed that she would be so foolish to pretend to be someone else. I'm not saying the path of self-destruction she was on a year ago was good. I just think she needs to develop and awareness of herself and deal with who she REALLY is before she gets married again.

It's not really my problem, but I'm very concerned about this. I'd rather not go to a wedding I don't think is going to result in a life-long marriage, but that's me. Of course, I can never tell her that and I will go to Louisiana with a big smile on my face and wish them well and say I'm happy for them.

So there's what's eating me lately. I NEED a freakin vacation. However, I don't think my Grand Canyon trip is going to be what I need. I will need a vacation from that vacation is that's what I choose to do. I want to go to a beach...I want to go deep sea fishing again and eat seafood everyday and drink beer on the beach. Even if I have to do it alone...I'll do it. I need to get away and clear my head.